Sometimes life is completely overwhelming. There are seasons that seem to have a theme such as "in-the-groove-feeling-good-I-got-this-down" and there are other seasons that are like a blind person trying to drive a car.
I'm currently leaning towards the latter.
We announced our exciting pregnancy news this weekend, so I can finally let out all my blog thoughts about it! RELIEF! I typically am not an easily-overwhelmed or emotionally-consumed person.....except when I'm carrying and growing these babies in my body. A whole other Aimee. And it can honestly get a little frustrating. I like feeling like I've got things under control, like I've got a handle on life. It is no fun to feel less than capable. And I guess that kind of sums up how I feel while pregnant. My body is working double time to do amazing things in it. Growing another freaking human for goodness sake. It's a lot of work! Yet all that important, incredible work leaves me just not able to do everything else at the speed or capacity in which I did pre-pregnancy. Work outs, house chores, dinners, caring for kids, etc. It all kind of gets a tone down on the energy and I'm left sometimes feeling very frustrated. Because I want to do it all and be it all.
It is a true physical reminder that I am very, very MORTAL and my capacity, limits, and abilities are very, very finite. It's the third time around, so I've gotten to my look in the mirror, preach to myself self talks on this subject a little sooner. Reminding myself that this frustration is where I get to exchange MY expectations of myself for GOD'S expectations of me. And let his thoughts of me take over my mind. I get to dig into the Word and discover what those are. I get to exchange my heavy yoke for his light and easy one. And rely on Jesus' strength, truths, joy, perseverance, love, and grace more than I ever have before.
"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yolk upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28
It is his shoulders that are strong enough to carry all the stuff we carry, not ours. I'm grateful for the exchange he invites us into. May my days get LIGHTER as this belly gets heavier. ha-ha. :)
2 comments:
I love reading your blog posts Aimee. I sometimes feel like your reading my thoughts. Haha! Thanks for sharing.
I love the way you express yourself in your writings, Aim. You are genuine and run deep. I'm so proud of you and am impressed with how you seek balance. Love you!
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