HE SEES YOU

In my church's Fall bible study we went through Rick Warren's book Bible Study Methods. I have to admit, I wasn't too expectant when I signed up. That is bad, I know. I'm sorry. But it's true. It sounded mundane, too studious and boring. But it was the BEST study I've ever done. It brought a whole new excitement for the Word to me. Learning new ways to pull truths out of the Bible was like a hot fresh home-cooked meal to my soul. So refreshing, so comforting. And most importantly, it allowed the Lord to speak straight to the heart of this mom who really needs to hear what He has to say.

As a group, we emphasized meditating on Scripture.  Not like a new age meditating with a yoga mat and wheat grass shots....but like the-cow-chews-the-cud meditating.  Think about it and think about it again.  Dwell on it. Abide in it. Pray about it. Think about it some more. 

One particular week we practiced a new study method on Psalm 139. And at such an unexpected, unassuming moment after a long, long day, on a night where I almost did not go to bible study, the Lord broke through to my heart like a thief breaking into a car. Right there in that church building, sitting around tables in hard chairs eating cookies, using the "Chapter Summary Method" he had something he would not let me leave without hearing. 

He sees me.
He knows me.
And He sees me.

Those words melted me. HE sees me. The God of the universe sees me. He knows me. He knit me together in my mothers womb. There's not a moment that passes that he doesn't know what I'm going through. 

As I dwelled on this that whole week, it drew me back from teetering on an emotional cliff. It talked me down from the ledge of lies that Satan wants to feed me. It comforted me. It encouraged me. It brought an unspeakable reassurance and security to my heart. 

As the baby of 5 and the only girl, it was easy to feel that "what about me" thing growing up.  That thing where you want to wave your hands around and jump up and down just to see if anyone is paying attention or notices you. And as an almost 27 year old wife and mom, I still feel that sometimes. 

Like HELLO!?!? Does anyone see me!?

Well you know what...HE sees you. HE sees me.

When I'm peeling my tired body out of bed at 1am, 4am, and 6am to tend to crying babies who are hungry and toddlers who have to pee; he sees me.
When I'm chasing after screaming kids trying to wipe sticky hands and runny noses; he sees me.
When I'm at the end of my rope with disobedient toddlers, he sees me.
When I'm feeling alone in motherhood, he sees me.
When I'm feeling unappreciated, he sees me.

Not only does He see us, but He is just waiting to shower us with all the affirmations and attention and love and adoration and appreciation we desire.  He's just waiting for us to come to him for those things. He's just waiting for us to seek him so we can find what we're looking for.

So moms, take this word like a nice little present wrapped in your favorite paper, addressed to you and from Jesus...

Lets stop jumping around and waving our hands at our husbands and families for the appreciation, attention, and affirmation we want.  Instead, lets go to the Father first. Let's sit at His feet. Because he never gets tired of us asking. He never runs out of time. He's always ready, available and faithful.

We don't have to be seen by others because we are seen by Him.