It is crazy how time flies. It is December 6, 2011 for goodness sakes! And with December comes winter. And with Winter come things I do not fully enjoy (a nice way to put it). The skin between my fingers is past the stage of cracking dry-ness and on the verge of bleeding! My lips are basically a desert. I blew a bubble of gum and it stuck to every last dry cranny on my lips. Lotion and chapstick are on my desk, in my purse, on my bathroom sink just to try to keep me from crackling into oblivion. But so far I am not winning.
Then I walked into work today and as I washed my hands at the bathroom sink, I looked at my shirt and thought "Aimee, you are wearing a pink, flowery, short sleeved shirt that could be April or May's mascot....did you not notice all of the other people wearing sweaters of deep purple and black because it is a pretty constant 35* outside??"
So I determined I would go find some more "winterish" clothes. But after a little while I changed my mind. I might live in Washington, but that doesn't change the fact that my roots are Californian and I need some bright colors and tanning beds to get me through the winter. I'm like a bear, can i just got into hibernation until its at least 65*?
Funny enough, this is a perfect segway into my life at the moment! Here I am struggling with missing my family...my parents, brothers, cousins, aunts, uncles. Missing some sunshine. Feeling like I am in a season of life as dead as Winter and God's asking me to go ahead and settle in to it, enjoy it, and be okay with it for the time being.
ENJOY it, God!? Did you forget that I came from a land of sunshine and blue skies. Maybe it got chilly for a couple months, but it didn't rain for 9 months, it didn't snow, it wasn't gray for 90% of the year!
I was sitting on the couch pouring things like this out of my heart to the Lord this past weekend. I asked him to speak to me, asked him to give me something to anchor my soul for the time being...and he so simply said "Aimee, do not despise Me and do not despise where I have you."
Just like Winter, this season of life is not my favorite. Just like Winter, it is uncomfortable and hard sometimes. Just like winter it is dark sometimes. And just like Winter I tend to despise it. Just like Winter, it won't last forever.
After Winter, Spring comes.
Winter this year will be rest for the weary. Winter this year will be warm nights with my husband as we grow closer together because all we've got is eachother up here.
At the end of it all, I want to be able to say, Thank you Jesus for the Winter. Because my bible says in all things rejoice and in all things give thanks.
"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:3-5
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♪♪♫♫ You have sunshine on a cloudy day...when it's cold outside, you have the month of May (in your heart)...I guess you'd say "What can make you feel this way?"....YOUR life...talkin' 'bout your l-i-f-e. ♫♫♪♪♫♫
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